Mimi and her terrible horrible very bad morning

My friend Robin wondered one time if I am ever depressed or if I have bad days. Well yeah. I’m in the midst of one right this minute! As you know, we’ve been struggling with some pretty big issues in this household ranging from joblessness to launching two new businesses simultaneously. But none of that is what trips me up. It’s the teeny tiny irritants that lead me to rant, as I just did, to a poor telemarketer who had mistakenly assumed I have a son named Andrew who is the target of a debt collection company. Whatever. (Say that in a really nasty tone, and it will be the next best thing to being here…glad you’re reading remotely, eh!?)

Here are the tiny things…

• Email from a top, as in tip-top, CEO I thought would love to hear from me and be intrigued by my services enough to at least direct me to someone within his organization. I got the “why don’t you run along now” message from him. But imagine how my heart lept when I saw his name in my inbox, only to have a curt and superficial “your services don’t match our needs” message. PUH-lease. My services match any businesses needs and I can prove it! (Can you sense my spite spirit?)
• Took myself outside to read the proof of my new workbook only to be filled with worry over what it will cost to actually print the damn things. Couldn’t even think about the men and women who might someday hold it in their hands and make life-changing notes in the margins. Just got lock-jawed and cranky pants-ed over m-o-n-e-y.
• Looked up from reading to see the dog had eaten the last of my alyssum that was up and out of her reach last week, before she started growing into My LIttle Pony. Then I realized that she was standing on her hind legs feasting on my beautiful Gerber daisies. (Don’t sing! This ISN’T FUNNY!)
• Next, it dawned on me that she had taken her dirty self into my house, dragging potting soil with her—argh!
• Decided to quickly check email instead of taking out the vacuum—bad choice, it contained another quote for photograhy required to get my beautiful line of t-shirts and hats up on my website. And what is the message on those t-shirts and hats? Practice Peace. WHATEVER!
• So I went back outside to finish proofing the workbook. The birds are singing, the breeze blowing and the phone rings inside. It’s a reporter calling to talk to me about my upcoming workshop, Blooming Where You’re Planted. Can you say, bad timing? I tried to take the irritated tone out of my voice and focus. I give really great advice on media relations. It is something I am quite good at, if I do say so myself, and I have positioned top executives as bit time experts. Normally, I don’t miss a beat and I can capture every opportunity to deliver my message. This morning, I sucked. I broke all my own rules; gave this young intern waaaaay too much information; chattered; lost focus….WHATEVER!
• Returned outside and decide to breathe (there’s a thought) and read my devotions. Caught up on yesterday’s reading which was all about living in the light and being light to those around us (that message obviously alluded me when I was speaking to the telemarketer who called about five minutes later. My short term memory and my heart are both apparently no-shows today!) and then today’s devotional message was more about Easter and Christ appearing in the locked room saying to his disciiples gathered there in fear, “Peace be with You.”

Peace be with you. Even when I’ve locked my heart and my mind down due to raging hormones, pounding fears and self absorption. As much as I attempt to shut it out, Peace comes in.

Then I was stomping up the stairs (because it’s going to be one of those days when my peaceful state is fleeting, only to meet my dear husband. I had stomped up previously to tell him about the aforementioned email from the CEO. His words then had been, “if you make one person feel better, that’s all that matters.” So this time, I said “But I have spent so much money on this business and it’s not going anywhere and I’m working really hard and it’s like I bought a car that I didn’t insure and then I totaled it and it started out to be a pontiac but I think I’m about to total a bmw and then what will happen…!!!!???” He hugged me and said, “It’s going to be just fine, dear.”

Practice Peace.
Be in the light and be the light.
If you make one person feel better…
Peace be with you.
It’s going to be just fine.

Am I a blessed woman or what? Sometimes, Grace gives us many, many chances to catch on. I am grateful for that. Today may not be a day that gets the best of Mimi, but I will be good enough. Goodness sometimes grows in spite of me. Grace on the other hand…grace always sticks with me and carries me on even when I’m an obstacle to growth instead of a channel.

Goodness and Grace be with you my friends. When you have a bad day, remember you are not alone; try to breathe in a bit of beauty and exhale some small kindness,  and remember…this too shall pass.

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